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{February 22, 2007}   rofl. spam.

Aloha, my gentleman

I am glad you are reading my letter. I decided to send you a mail and invite you to build relationships with me. I am a woman who wants to create a loving family, have children, live in love and happiness. I will give all my tenderness I have in my heart to the man who will be my husband. Do you want to build relationships with me?

http://theloveisonline.com/shylovers

The best of luck
Nastenka
What does my future wife do in her leisure time? Well, according to her site, she “like growing flowers , visiting beautiful , cultural places , drawing , spend time with my friends , go to the disco , to play bowling”. She’s also a psychologist and when asked about her build, she says she “thin I am right-handed”.

>D sometimes spam is great fun.



So…what is Justin Timberlake’s deal? I mean, I know absolutely nothing about him, but his new music video, “What Goes Around (Comes Around)”, makes me fear for his sanity. It’s all nice and beautiful to begin, mostly due to the lovely Miss Scarlett Johansson being her beautiful self and seducing the heck out of him with her full lips of doom, but towards the end (after all the great parts where she’s like um…having sex with him? :D), she kisses his best friend and he goes CRAZY. Beats the crap out of his friend and then chases her down in his car! Finally, her car flips and she DIES. Yeah, that’s right, dies. x.x;; And the song title, let me remind you, is “what goes around”…. WTF is up with this? It makes me feel awkward for having watched it…but now it’s your turn.

    


{February 10, 2007}   Bettie Page

Adriann and I rented two movies last night — one being HBO’s The Nortorious Bettie Page. It was a really odd movie in that nothing really happened, but what really made it work for both Adriann and I was the fact that Bettie wasn’t this Tigress of Sex that everyone makes her out to be. As they were filming these lewd and what would today be considered tame versions of bondage acts, she was smiling, laughing, and joking around. Half the time, you realize she didn’t know what the pictures or videos were being sold for. And when asked, “Do you think God would disapprove of what you’re doing?” she said, “I think God gives everyone a specific talent that He wants them to use, and if He doesn’t want me to do this anymore, I know He’ll tell me.” And by the end of the movie and I guess the end of Bettie’s life, she devoted herself to God. She was raised a devout Christian in the south and that shocked me more than anything. I just had this image of her life that was completely erroneous.

And the strangest thing…. I cannot find information on her whereabouts today or if she’s even still alive. Wikipedia doesn’t say and her official fan site just says she’s enjoying a quiet life with her family…. WHAT FAMILY?? I am so incredibly intrigued.

And now to intregue you all as well, I present a real video of Page. Hopefully this isn’t offensive to anyone. I think it’s one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever seen. I love the expression on her face when she sees that the name on the sign is her own. :) It’s so innocent and available.



{February 8, 2007}   Will 2.0 Save the Web?

Will 2.0 Save the Web?

“Web 2.0” is either the greatest buzzword of the century or the worst, depending on what your definition is. And let’s be honest, how many people actually give it a proper definition? Lately, everyone and their brother have been throwing the term around like confetti on New Year’s Eve. The definition in Wikipedia (ehem, speaking of 2.0!) is the one most people refer to and the one I choose to believe to start, so let’s review it:

Web 2.0, a phrase coined by O’Reilly Media in 2004, refers to a perceived or proposed second generation of Web-based services—such as social networking sites, wikis, communication tools, and folksonomies—that emphasize online collaboration and sharing among users.

What everyone agrees on is that Web 2.0 is about social networking. Sites like Myspace, Friendster, and Facebook are prime examples of the burgeoning need to create communities that revolve around one simple thing – the user.

Let’s go back to 1998. I’m about 14 years old, I have glasses half the size of my head, a curly perm of hair down to my butt, I’ve just entered high school, and I’m angsty. “Mother,” I say, because I’m too snotty to just say ‘mom’, “We need a computer.” Now while many of you may have had computers back then without qualms, it was a bit of a to-do for my family, considering no one but me really cared one way or the other what WWW stood for. I was extremely conscious of the importance of this tool, because I saw the potential in communicating in a new form. I hated the phone, you can’t talk to a TV, and I was incredibly shy – the internet was perfect.

Whatever it was back then, we (or some people) refer to it as “Web 1.0”, the beginning of the World Wide Web. Back then I, like many others, connected to the internet via AOL, accessed chatrooms based on that browsing system, and found the concept of instant messaging to be phenomenal and almost mind-boggling. I was young, naïve, and I created flashy, ugly webpages just like everyone else. I knew how to insert pictures, highlight or bold text, and how to make an image look like water. ;) I was ahead of my years. I could have been a “web designer” back then, because I knew 1) how to set up a free website, 2) how to manage that website, and 3) how to slap a background and some text on it.

But Web 2.0 suggests we are moving forward. This is the second generation of the Internet, and if I wanted to be a web designer now, I’d have to know CSS, PHP, HTML, Ajax, and/or Ruby on Rails. Clearly, my puny little water-wave websites with flashing candles and pink text wouldn’t do the trick, and obviously no one would pay me to make a website. Unless you’re trying to win some kind of “ugliest website alive” contest, in which case my prices are quite reasonable.

In Web 1.0, I was just a user among users, and I had no control. Sure, I could create a website but that didn’t mean anyone would care, and if they did, how would I know? “Guestbooks” and email were the closest and only forms of communication between webmasters and their users, clients, and surfers. There was literally no connection – it was, as I saw it written somewhere, one brochure after another without correlation.

Web 2.0 has changed everything. In this new generation, the internet is clean, classy, and only gets better with age. The more people use 2.0 products, the better they become and the smarter to boot.

Look at Wikipedia.org for example. A few years ago, I laughed at its creativity and now it is arguably one of the most important forms of information on the internet, not because its anything reputable or because it was written by someone with a PhD but because the masses have control. Or Myspace.com, which, five years ago, I couldn’t have cared less about but which I am not attempting to sever an addiction to. Myspace’s success had nothing to do with marketing tactics or flashy design (it’s probably the ugliest website ever) – it was all controlled carefully by the best kind of advertisement – word-of-mouth. Joe told Tim, who told Susie, who told Larry, who told Patricia, who told Jenn, who told me, and now I have 300 friends and Tom to thank for my full-blown addiction.

Now that 2.0 has made it to the cover of Time Magazine, I think people are really starting to let the backlash rip. They’re saying it’s a passing fad, that Web 2.0 is “merely” social marketing and hippie mentality. They say there really isn’t anything we can gain from this simple ‘trend’ and that it is just that, a trend. It will pass, and they can’t wait.

But will Web 2.0 really pass?

The answer is yes, mostly because everything passes but more because it’s a stepping stone to whatever Web 3.0 is. What excites me most is that nothing on the internet can last forever and the evolution is what drives a fad to become a lasting effect on the world. Web 2.0 has certainly influenced how business is done, how websites are run, and proves that there is still power in a single person who wants to make a change.



{February 8, 2007}   death

Anna Nicole Smith died today.

I thought, when Joe stood up and told me that, he was joking and it would be some odd punchline about her weight or some other kind of pun. It wasn’t though. She’s dead.

I don’t know why…but it made me feel incredibly helpless and small, insignificant. I’ve been having a crap day either way (can’t write why at the moment but will elaborate soon), and that just sort of punctuated the blackness. I mean, she just collapsed. If someone that important (don’t argue this, because everyone knew her name, so even if she was “worthless” in your eyes, she was obviously something special for our culture) could just fall over and die, what chance does that leave the rest of us? I could fall over today and just…it would be over.

These are things beyond what I can understand, and that’s what makes me so sad.

Below is the only text on the homepage for Trimspa.com. I think that’s admirable of them, and as I said when I clipped this article for ClipClip, may she rest in peace, wherever she may be. :(

 

Whippany, NJ, February 8, 2007 – Today, Anna Nicole Smith’s grief stricken and tumultuous personal life came to an end. Anna came to our Company as a customer, but she departs it as a friend. While life for Anna Nicole was not easy these past few months, she held dear her husband, Howard K. Stern, her daughter, Dannielynn Hope, her most cherished friends, beloved dogs, and finally, her work with TRIMSPA.Anna knew both the joy of giving life, and the heartache of losing a child. We pray that she is granted the peace that eluded her more recent days on earth, and that she find comfort in the presence of her son, Daniel.

– Alex Goen, CEO and Founder, TRIMSP

Anna Nicole Smith



{February 6, 2007}   my perspective

Why do we reminisce?

Honestly, I believe we look at the past if we’re not satisfied with the present. And I don’t mean that everyone who looks back isn’t satisfied with the status quo, but I mean when people dwell on things that happened in the past, there’s something about their present life that irks them, something beneath the skin that forces them to remember better times when whatever is wrong now wasn’t apparently wrong then.

But our view of the past is skewed. I remember things differently than other people might, and one event looks different to the people who made it happen. So why do we place so much importance on the past if it’s not even a true reconstruction of what happened?

Do you believe this Carbon Leaf quote?

You’ve come far, and though you’re far from the end,
you don’t mind where you are, cause you know where you’ve been.



{February 5, 2007}   also

I don’t care if you don’t want to see this. You are forced to indulge yourself in Dan Radcliffe. :) You’ll thank me later.

zomg. *_*



This is what I am: great. :)

Jackie demanded an update, and so here it is: I got a $3 raise from the good folks at my work (yes, you read that right — $3 raise), which means I’m making $16/hr. It’s….the craziest thing I’ve ever heard of and it made me feel incredible, like I could concquer the world. I think with $16/hr I definitely could.

In other news, Adriann and I went to Vegas to see Zumanity and gamble. I won like a maniac on this friggin awesome Star Wars slot machine. It had a bonus spin thingy with the Death Star, and I rocked it out on that. I won a $60, $40, and $21 jackpot, and after the whole trip, we ended up about $20 ahead. We had $72 to gamble out of all the change we’d collected in this jar, and when we left we had $90. Would’ve had more, but I pushed my luck and lost $5 and so did Adriann. ;) She was rocking it out on the blackjack machine too, btw.  But the bonus spins for Star Wars were great — it had a video screen that showed a clip of Han Solo running after the Storm Troopers and then you had to shoot the two Storm Troopers that stood for values above after the Death Star spun. You’d have to see it, but it was great. It also had a bonus round where, if the wheel landed on Darth Vader and Obi Wan, they’d battle and you could choose which to back. I won betting on Darth! >D

Zumanity was a little disappointing. I liked it overall but it was more of a jokey Caberet type of thing than a serious Circque du Soleil show. There was a lot more nudity than I expected but it got to the point that I was just like, “oh look boobs… hmm…how interesting”. The two highlights for me were:

1) There were these two girls who did acrobatics and contortionist-type acts in this giant fishbowl. It was so gorgeous. Just the water and them diving into it and swirling around in it and touching one another. Not in a sexual kind of way. You could see them smiling and having fun with it and they were INCREDIBLE at the acts they had to perform. At one point, the one girl was balancing on her neck. @_@! I was like, “GEEZ.”

2) Well duh, when the two guys kissed. Who didn’t see that one coming? But it was really beautiful, because these two pretty masculine guys came out and got trapped in this huge cage. They started battling each other, wrestling and shoving and fighting. There were some bars atop the cage where they’d swing etc, but the best part was the end. The cage lifted slowly and they just…kissed. And it wasn’t like, “brushoflipsewwe’rereallystraight!!”. It was, “Iaminlovewithyoupleasedon’tstop”. And very, very nice to watch.

Worst part was, of course, the jerks in the audience who were there to just see naked girls or something. It was awkward and they talked over all the really increible parts. I was all, “>O!!!!!” death-glaring them down the whole night.

lol And the main guy who was all Caberet-y picked this kind of oldish lady to come up on stage and she was sooo cute. He was crying out her name in the loby as we left and it was adorable and a half. :)

Oh. Our hotel, South Point, was awesome!! We had a Gryffindor-style bed with CURTAINS on each side, a plasma screen tv, and a couch! It was a cheap hotel too. We bought some Baileys at the hotel liquor store and some root beer and sipped on that in our private room. It was nice.

So yeah, overall – great little Vegas trip.

Jenn and I, as a general update, are “speaking” via Myspace messages. Not really speaking but at least making an effort. I feel like it’s fruitless, but we’ll see.

So this update? All good. :)



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